I have said many times before that I don't get writer's block. No, I just have days where anything I type turns magically into crap right before my eyes and no matter how much I beat it with a stick, it still is not that great.
There are days when I can write article after article and post after post. Unfortunately, about the biggest chunk of time I get to do this stuff is two or three hours and if I want that, I have to wait for the weekend.
I know if I write long enough, my pen or keyboard eventually gets tired of the forced words that are going through it and straightens them. But today is one of the days that I had nothing prepared. I had nothing written out from the night before. I have my lists of article ideas that I write when I am on a roll, but even those don't spark anything.
So I am typing and giving voice to this damn thing that tries to bring my schedule down. For it will not win. I have to treat myself like a toddler sometimes because that's the way my mind acts. I have often wondered if I should leak this to my kids, but to tell you the truth, I don't see much difference between myself now and myself as a kid. I know more. I still want to do things I want to. I am still petty at times. That list can go on.
But when I was a kid, I thought adults had it together. I thought that one day out of the blue, I would be an adult and everything would fall into line. If kids only know this isn't true. It's just as freaking confusing here. We call them bigger issues because we are bigger people, but that doesn't mean they are.
"You have to do your homework." I know I need to change the furnace filter, call back the refinance people, answer a few emails. But I don't want to. I will eventually, but that feeling is the same. So, in essence, I am a big hypocrite.
And maybe a post where I call myself a lazy idiot may give me the motivation to be more prepared tomorrow. Maybe it won't. Some days are good and some days are bad. I can't change that. But I can fake it until I make and sometimes that's all I need to do. Ignore the issues and start by habit. That's why good habits are good. Writer's block defeated by moving fingers on a keyboard.
Thanks for tuning into my rant. I promise better posts in the future.